Quarantine 2020

Never in a million years did I see this coming. A pandemic was never on my radar.

This Fall, my baby finally went to Kindergarten. All four of my kids were in school from about 9-3 every single day. I was finally able to give my business the time and attention it needed. I have had at least one kid home with me for the past 14 years and have always struggled with balance.

This Fall, as I watched my little girl step onto her school bus, I let out a huge sigh of relief. I did it. I finally had the balance I needed and longed for. I worked my ass off during the hours they were at school and then was there waiting for them as they got off the bus each day. Ready, refreshed, caught up and willing to give them my attention for the rest of evening. It was glorious.

Then came 2020 and Covid.

The worst part so far has been my daughter’s 4th grade Math work. Luckily, my 8th grader doesn’t ask for my help. The best part so far has been our time together. We have been able to create together and just exist together. It has allowed me to really see them and realize how much they have grown. I have raised four beautiful, incredible kiddos. I don’t always give them enough credit, man. I don’t always stop to just stare at their awesomeness. Without the pressures of activities, sports, playdates and endless to-dos, we have found a rhythm that I am grateful for. We have found a deeper appreciation for each other. I am a firm believer that you have to LOOK FOR the good in order to SEE the good.

Here I am, seeing the good through March and April 2020.